Testimony

Why would you want to hear from me?

I have walked through the valley of the shadow of death and I fear no evil. The Lord has shown me his goodness and love. I bank on the fact that I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. I have been hard pressed on every side, but not crushed. Most assuredly I have been perplexed. Never abandoned and by no means destroyed.

I have been under great pressure far beyond my ability to endure. And yes I have despaired of life its self. I have seen the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Through experience and faith I have come to believe I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. I understand what it means to count my various trials as joy. They are producing in me perseverance and maturity.  

I would say my first big trial was five years of infertility. Then four years after the birth of my son an unwanted divorce. I remarried an amazing man and we have had a wonderful life. At fifty nine after a medical procedure he formed a blot clot that went to his brain. He suffered a massive stroke and became permanently disabled. We lost our business, our income, home, cars and most of our possessions. It has been very humbling. We moved into my parent’s home. Soon after my mother became very ill and I cared for her for five years until her death one year ago.

My only natural child, my son whom I love with all my heart, has struggled with drugs and alcohol since he was fifteen, he is now thirty.  My heart has been broken, as a result my heart breaks for others. OH PLEASE don’t  think I am saying I have arrived on any level, far from it! I am a work in progress. There have been times I have been so depressed I only got out of bed on a need to basis. I have my highs and lows. 

Just recently I feel like I am getting my groove back. I have said for the past several years, “this is the year I get my groove back. The beginning of that looks like having energy for more than just basic life. I have experienced God using everything for my good. Wow, it has been a wild ride. I am a perserverer.

I have come to believe that God is the ruler of all mankind. He is my father, my friend, my comforter, my joy and my savior. I believe that by being real with each other, sharing our trials and joys we can encourage each other in the Lord.

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